See, I've been awake most of the night because CE has decided that she doesn't like to sleep. Instead she wants to be held, every hour and a half. After a few nights of this, I have been feeling increasingly aggravated. Of course my husband is out of town for work and I have to do it all myself. Get up, rock her back to sleep, hold her, get her to stop crying...all that "good stuff" that Momas do in the middle of the night.
Well God has a way with timing.
I just layed her back down for the fifth time tonight and emailed my husband complaining about how this was just not going to work, I just need some sleep, what can we do. Then I got on Facebook. The first post on my newsfeed came from a girl in my hometown. She was also saying she was wide awake, but for totally opposite reasons than I had. You see, today is 2 years for the loss of her baby to SIDS.
As she writes how she felt when she woke up that morning, just like every other morning, to go in and get her baby boy. What she found in place of her happy baby, was just his body...lifeless. I can not imagine how she felt at that moment. And this makes me thankful.
Thankful to have a sleepless baby.
Thankful to have a husband who works.
Thankful to serve my God.
Of course I could still use a good night's rest, but that will come in time. Until then my prayer will be for me to enjoy the time spent with CE and to be patient with her as she learns how to live in this crazy world.
So, until CE learns to enjoy sleeping, I'm just going to be thankful.
Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!- 2 Corinthians 9:15 NKJV
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